Meeting My Inner Muse

I was taught about self love, conceptually.

My self esteem has always been high.

I don’t worry too much about what other people think,

or being in the “in” crowd.

I’m an introvert, so I’m good with me,

most of the time.

However, real self adornment, self infatuation, (not to be confused with narcissism),

self worship and truly meeting my divine feminine nature, I knew nothing about,

until this year.

I never honored my monthly blood.

Even after I become a Mother 3 years ago, I didn’t say a prayer to my yoni,

or celebrate my womb as the sacred vessel of life it is.

Fortunately, I have always tapped into my creative powers, longings and musings.

This was what clued me into the fact that there was, and has always been a missing piece.

This was a deep worship and reverence of my sovereign nature.

The highest form of self love and self care.

Something I have practiced with undertones of self neglect, really.

Being self sufficient is one thing, being independent.

But being a magnet for my infinite potentiality,

now that’s where the answers lie.

Not because it sounds wonderful, but without it, my dreams will always just be a distant idea.

The reality of who and what I am and want to be in the world.

This by no means undermines the incredible life I have created and the wonderful person I am,

it is to simply say, there is

SO.

MUCH.

MORE.

A luscious life full of REAL sensual pleasures.

In the past I have clung to false pleasures of the outer world,

even through what I thought was sacred or healthy.

As well as using mind altering substances to again,

create a false sense of a deeper connection or independance.

I am just at the tale end of being sick, something that doesn’t happen to me much.

It was bad timing, I had many plans to get a big portion of an important project I am working on completed.

Or so I thought.

I have been thinking a lot about my idea of “self care” over the years

and without judgement, how it is no longer serving me, or maybe never was.

This time out, embracing whatever I was being offered as a gift to pay attention to,

gave me great pause.

It isn't the content I need to create to attract the clients, students, community and satisfaction.

It’s definitely not the social media posts, workout routine or happy hour meetings,

that I am missing the mark on.

It’s the inner musing, the worship of who I am calling in.

The invoking of my inner Muse to inspire the radiance of ME to be even more brilliant.

Digging deep, reaching higher, a burning down and blossoming out of…

Living and breathing this potentiality that is whatever I want it to be.

A boss.

A witch.

An example of what’s possible.

A holder of sacred space.

A sensual Goddess.

A sovereign Priestess.

A humbled servant of divine love.

A magical Mother.

A vibrant lover.

Who will you be when your dreams come true?

How will she walk and talk?

What activities will she engage in?

Who will she spend time with?

What feelings will she invoke in others.

How is she inspired?

How does she care for her self when she’s not well?

How does she celebrate?

I’ll tell you,

like a Queen Of Fucking Everything.

And so are you.

I harness my magnetic power and open to my infinite potentiality! -Sofia Thom

Has your PMS intensified after your Pregnancy? Moon mapping your cycle. (for all We'moon at any stage)

All my bleeding ladies,

put your hands up!

You can be at any stage of your cycle, bleeding or not, hysterectomy, menopause or post menopause.

We all still have a womb space where our divine feminine nature lives.

And we all, and I believe Men too, have a deep connection with our celestial Mother, La Luna.

She beckons our attention, poise and awe.

As my three year old just told me, La Luna follows us.

She has been in my view all week, day and night.

Not for one moment will She allow me to forget about my sacred nature as a priestess of the moon,

her humbled disciple and sister.

I have a long, complicated and very intimate relationship with my moon cycle, as do most women.

The most recent chapter of my story with her, we’ll call her Rose, was one about my new role as a Mother.

My son is 3 now, but Rose and I are still hashing out the details.

As would be expected, growing a human in my womb, complicated our relationship, in a good way.

There are many ways to grow and shift your understanding of the womb and Rose, but a baby is sure fire.

My overall experience of life intensified.

During the week before my bleeding, and none of this uncommon, but I felt much less in control over my thoughts, feelings and actions.

I could logically understand it was my hormones and my body giving me information of how it wanted to be treated, but I was, and still am, not use to how drastic things can get. Especailly, if I do not take care.

To the point.

It became very obvious to me that things had changed from Maiden to Motherhood, in my inner and outer worlds on many levels.

The other thing that was apparent, was that every month, the change in Rose had it’s own flavor.

Some months I was a portal of fire.

Others, just a bit down and emotional.

Some, needed more rest.

And again, body aches.

There were moths, like this one, that were pretty even keeled, but my confidence was shot.

This is just a mood, not a 24 hour/7 days a week type of thing.

I am still functioning during these days.

As I became in more communion with the moon itself, I started realizing that the moon was a common denominator in the equation my ever changing relationship with Rose.

On to moon charting. There are many ways to do this. This year, I started using my lovely We’Moon spiral bound calendar, (thanks, Mom!), because the moon phases are already printed, there is plenty of room for writing and it’s just a beautiful ritual in sacred sisterhood.

The day I bleed is the first day, and I write 1-28 on each day proceeding.

From here, I can watch what phase of the moon my PMS cycle falls into.

I write in each day of my 28 days, how I am feeling physically, emotionally, spiritually and anything else that can inform how I plan my schedule.

After 3 or 4 months you will notice some patterns and can start to make a more specific chart of the moon phase during whatever time of your cycle seems most impacted. For example: Waxing first quarter moon, sensitive and sore breasts, days 21-28, generally speaking.

Maybe you don’t start new projects on these days, or take new client calls or have an intimacy meeting with your partner.

You also may not plan a trip or a dentist appointment.

Maybe during a point in your cycle you are usual ready to take on the world. No holding back.

These are the times when you want to book times for making offers or networking.

Even extended family time or travel.

Set your self up for success.

I have done it too many times, where I just need to do the bare minimum and rest.

I end up beating my self up for not getting everything off of my list.

However, if I plan ahead and know what kind of day it’s going to be based on Rose and I, I will plan accordingly.

I’m telling you, it helps a lot.

It takes a little bit of work, but if you do it every night before bed, it becomes a sacred ritual of checking in with your body, mind and heart.

As far as coaching goes, it works just like another emotion.

Recognize it, state it out loud, place it, allow it and watch it change.

No emotions or thoughts last forever.

They do change quicker with less resistance.

Accommodate your needs.

There’s room for you here and I can help you understand, on a deeper level, your own inner and outer workings through Mind Body Coaching.

Email me with a time to set up a phone call.

Luna Blessings. xo